My recovery story begins back in the springs of 2012 when I was still a college student at Chattahoochee Tech. (Technical) College. I was focusing on studying toward a major in Computer Information System-Networking Specialist. During that time, my core classes (Math and English); I was curious about the dating world. So I decided my option of choice was to date online. (I won't go into detail about that - by not naming individuals.) The thing about the date that I experienced was short; and it lasted a week. I was dating my second ex who I discovered shortly after when I ended our first date, he has an anti-personality disorder (sociopath). After few months of this crazy person who was trying to control my life; he took revenge on me by doing the unthinkable, using some of my best friend’s information into my e-mail and I fell for it. And as a result; I was in a terrible car accident, looking for my best friend in summer of 2012. Next couple months afterward, I was not myself - First, hearing voices from two of my former mentors from my father’s mouth. (one example that happened to me.) Then; second, I ran away twice; (one: on foot with my father’s bicycle for a mile or two up the street, fortunately; I called my parents on the cellphone as I was returning back home, after a couple of days after my car accident and was hospitalized the first time in summer of 2012. And two: I took the S.U.V. and drove it away for hours; fortunately, when I reach my final destination at my colIege, that evening. My former mentor along with some police officers were waiting for me there until my parents came and I was hospitalized again for the second time afterwards in the beginning of 2013.) I ran away, the first time and took the S.U.V., the second time; because I was afraid of my father who had two voices (one was positive and the other was negative) which was coming from his mouth between two of my former mentors. Next; third, during both times I was hospitalized, I was confusion and afraid as I was recovering from the mess I was in. And finally; fourth, I do remember seeing image of my second ex, four times. - (One: I remember in just before the car accident, I saw an image of my second ex, driving next to me at a stop light. I did see him, but for second before the light changed to green light and I drove ahead of him towards going home. - Two: I remember a strong image of him while I was hospitalized, the first time at Wellstar hospital, however; he was in a wheelchair and was a muslim roommate after my first roommate was released from the hospital. I was afraid of him and he had the same mental disorder - anti-personality disorder (sociopath) like my ex did. Lucky for me, I working on some strategies around him until my release from the hospital. - Three: After I was release from the hospital the first time, I saw another image of my second ex; driving across the street as my mother and I were going to the gasstation to get some gas for our car. - And Finally Four: Also after a week or two of released from the hospital the first time, I remember when my parents and me went to a place get my parents' new glasses, I waited in the waiting room when suddenly an image of my second ex appeared with an image of his mother. They sat behind us for a movement. I felt very afraid because I knew someone was coming to the same place and I wanted to stay behind in the car. however they didn't stay very long and departed.) - I been going to a Psychiatrist for passed 6 years as he worked get the right dose of meds since the end of 2012. [I used to take Risperidone, but it was not effective and made the voices and other things worse.] However, I take two meds - (Fluoxetine) in the morning and (Olapanzine) at night, before bedtime; which it’s very successful with improve, in addition; I don't hear voices anymore, but continue to take them maybe for the rest of my life and not to miss taking my meds for certain period of time. Also in 2012, I went to a Therapy for a couple of weeks towards the end of 2012, in a one-on-one session with her and I to resolve my relationship of cause and effect between myself and my ex. The next year in 2013 about a month after I was hospitalized the second time; I went to a group house for almost a year while going to a Community Service place, in Carterville, Georgia, United States. Then, I returned home and went to Cobb and Douglas Community Services Board (a.k.a. - The Circle) for two years, near my location; in Powder Springs, Georgia, United States - to continue learning and manage my diagnosis. - (Used to be diagnosis as Schizophrenia, which I thought it was (for a while), but recently really was diagnosed as Schizoaffective Disorder.) Recently, I returned to the same college in 2016, but changed my major to Media Production with a new purpose to get into the film / television industry one day. I been having the courage to drive again, but with my father until one day I would be able to drive on my own again. Lucky for me, I was able to drive on my own this year and to the future for next year, thanks to my father's help. I been using social media to learn and connect with others who have similar issues like I have. Also i returned to blogging that I haven’t done in a while. And I returned to dating again in 6 years, but I’m learned from my mistakes from my last relationship(s) into this new one as I take things slow.
