Thursday, February 28, 2019

Life Lessson: Life lesson that will be hard to get over: #2.

Yesterday, as I was updating some important information on my Apple iPhone 7; I may had done a big and foolish mistake. On my Apple ID account page, it ask me to enter some very detail information from me. As a result, I found out this afternoon that someone hacked into my phone from the debt card and other information from Apple. I simply forget to protect myself as I was using my iphone - like VPN from hacker attacks. I hope it doesn't further into my life's work as a person / college student / and finally, being a LGBTQ supporter and being a mental health person.

Wednesday, February 27, 2019

Entertainer / Music Celebrity News: Update 7 - Jussie Smollett with more evidence, the response from celebrities and others on his story, and a possible lesser prison time.

More evidence from the Chicago Police Department against Jussie Smollett’s case. The response from celebrities and others on his story. Plus a possible lesser prison time in his case.

1. https://pagesix.com/2019/02/25/chicago-police-chief-theres-more-evidence-against-jussie-smollett/









Saturday, February 23, 2019

Storytime #9: The story behind my name

My name is Allan L. Sanders - Basically; to me, it means: a wise person. Before I was born, my parents and father’s side of the family agreed to have all of my male cousins first name to begin with an A. (in my generation.)
I thought I was going to have my name as a junior after my father, Mario L. Sanders, but he decided to change the name to Allan from some research before or after I was born. (I'm not sure when he did the research.)
Allan and Alan are first names and Allen is a last name.
As for my middle initial; my middle name is Lavern, which is from my father’s middle name, but I’m not sure what it means.
And finally; for my last name, Sanders, which has been a common name in my family for generations.
So, I like to honor my name, Allan L. Sanders because is the best for me and my both sides of my family. 

Friday, February 22, 2019

Thursday, February 21, 2019

Entertainer / Music Celebrity News: Update 5 - Jussie Smollett is in trouble for changing his story to police and could be arrested.

This is not how I thought Jussie would be because he’s not honest to the police by sticking to one story and not changing it. I understand that he is big in T.V./film industry, but he need to think about what his history of Black and LGBTQ communities if he just giving up his phone to the police in the first place. I hope he could do the right thing since he is charged and arrested for a while then maybe returns.

1. https://www.nbcnews.com/news/amp/ncna973036

2. https://tvline.com/2019/02/21/jussie-smollett-arrested-in-custody-false-police-report-empire/

3. https://people.com/crime/jussie-smollett-charged-filing-false-police-report-alleged-hate-attack/amp/

4. https://www.nytimes.com/2019/02/20/arts/television/jussie-smollett-attack-suspect.html

5. https://amp.cnn.com/cnn/2019/02/21/entertainment/jussie-smollett-thursday/index.html

6. https://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/jussie-smolletts-alleged-chicago-attack-details-unfold-a-timeline-of-events

7. https://chicago.cbslocal.com/2019/02/21/jussie-smollett-surrenders-disorderly-conduct-staged-attack/amp/

8. https://www.chicagotribune.com/news/local/breaking/ct-met-jussie-smollet-arrest-20190221-story,amp.html

9. https://pagesix.com/2019/02/20/jussie-smollett-is-now-officially-a-suspect/amp/

10. Part 1: https://abc7chicago.com/amp/jussie-smollett-staged-attack-because-he-was-dissatisfied-with-his-salary-police-say/5148577/

11. Part 2: https://abc7chicago.com/amp/jussie-smollett-out-on-bond-after-being-accused-of-staging-attack-/5148577/

12. Part 3: https://abc7chicago.com/jussie-smollett-bond-set-at-%24100k-staged-attack-because-he-was-dissatisfied-with-his-salary-police/5148577/

13. https://theblast.com/jussie-smollett-dropped-lgbtq-charity/

14. https://www.nytimes.com/2019/02/17/arts/television/jussie-smollett-attack-timeline.html

Saturday, February 16, 2019

Storytime #8: The relationship with my parents and my family members - history

My relationship with my parents is an interesting one. In the beginning, my mother originally from the Caribbean islands of Trinidad and couple years later; she, her brothers (two brothers), her sister, and her parents moved to Hartford, Connecticut, United States. Meanwhile my mother went to London, the United Kingdom for school then moved to Hartford, Connecticut, United States. And eventually, not long afterward, she moved to Georgia, United States, while one of her brothers and her sister stayed in Hartford, Connecticut, United States. And her parents and her younger brother moved to Port. St. Lucie, Florida, the United States for a while.
Meanwhile, my father was born and raised in Atlanta, Georgia, the United States for most of his life. He has three other brothers and a sister. His brothers and he joined in a long tradition of being in the Atlanta Police Department in Atlanta, Georgia, United States for years/decades. His sister, on other hand; had being volunteered with the Sickle Cell Foundation in Atlanta, Georgia, the United States for years since the 1980s (I'm guessing.) His parents were not too poor or rich people. My father's mother started a Catholic church, decades ago; St. Paul of the Cross in Atlanta, Georgia, United States. While my father's father was a WWII (World War 2) veteran.
My parents met in Atlanta, GA, United States. They got married on June 18, 1979 (on the same month and day as their birthdays, but a year apart from each other.) [My father was born on June 18, 1951 and my mother was born on June 18, 1852.] I was born a couple years later on February 20, 1986, but was premature. My mother lost two children during childbirth before me, so I was a lucky baby.
Since I don't have any brothers or sisters besides having cousins, I had felt like I been over protected by my mother, sometimes; before my teenager years.
Over the years, I lost some of my family members growing-up. Started with my great-grandmother on the father's side; before she passed away, who I never got a chance to meet. Before I came home from the hospital as a premature baby after I was born. She waited for months for me to finally came home before she passed away because she knew I was in trouble in the hospital by surviving until I became strong enough to came home in June of the same year (1986)
Next, one of my grandfather, my father's father; I was lucky enough to know him enough before he passed away in the early 90s. In 1992, he died from lung cancer from smoke too much. In addition, he was an honor from the military at his funeral.
Then years later, in my mid-20s; my grandmother, my father's mother; who passed away from natural causes in 2011, she was an active person with a good life behind her.
Then followed by my grandmother, my mother's mother. She passed away, a year later afterwards in 2012; from some type of mental illness of a cause from my mother's father.
And last so far recently, in my early 30s; my other grandfather, my mother's father; who passed away in 2018. He was a wealthy person; who manage to pass down his real estate to his children. (Both of his daughters including my mother and one of his sons, but not his youngest son.)
For some reason, all of my grandparents passed away in the summer time, which it’s strange to me.
Anyway, my parents have been married and together for almost 40th years, which it's wonderful and I'm happy to have both of them in my life. Sometimes I talk back to my mother because of the verbal abuse she has done to me in the past. But I try to remember without her in my life, I wouldn't be the person I am today. As for my father, I still respect him because of all the work he has done for my mother and me. By him working hardship in a couple of jobs in law enforcement, I'm proud for years; he been able to talk to me about money management mostly and other things in life except for things I have to learn for my myself.
As I learn, I learn to grow with knowledge about myself and others.

Entertainer / Music Celebrity News: Update 4 - Jussie Smollett maybe in trouble because of his story being changed for the police

I hope that they can resolve the case with Jussie’s story and as for the brothers that was not involved or suspects towards to case.

1. https://www.hotnewhiphop.com/empire-cast-and-nigerians-arrested-in-jussie-smollett-case-are-tight-report-news.72163.html?_amp

2. https://www.cbsnews.com/amp/news/jussie-smollett-case-brothers-say-empire-actor-paid-them-to-participate-in-alleged-attack-source-says-2019-02-16/

3. https://thegrapevine.theroot.com/report-new-evidence-suggests-jussie-smollett-was-an-ac-1832679197/amp

4. https://www.complex.com/pop-culture/2019/02/chicago-police-jussie-smollett-orchestrated-attack

Monday, February 4, 2019

Storytime #7: Update 2 (What I didn’t mention about) - Storytime #Zero(0): This is my recovery story and Storytime #5: My Coming Out Story - Something I hate to admit to most of my family members

Last month, I posted, “Storytime Zero(0), This is my recovery story.” and as well as this year’s post, “Storytime #5: My Coming Out Story - Something I hate to admit to most of my family members.” Well, there is a little more back story that I didn’t mention about. It took a lot of thought and still a little puzzled about my story towards from my past until the part where I went to a Therapist for a couple of weeks towards the end of 2012 - also about few of months or so before that, I was in a world of a mess. - These thoughts took me years to figure out. - But I will try to explain in best of my ability.
Okay, back months before I graduated from high school, when I was 19; for some reason, I went into a depression (due to my mother's verbal abuse on me during my teen years) and tried suicide - with a cough drop / pepper mint candy, twice in two different rooms; (my room and the living room without my parents knowing.)
Then years later, between after I broken off with my second ex and before my car accident (between after Springs and mid-Summer of 2012,) I tried to pray to God, when my parents won’t home with me - to pray the gay away. Then, with my frustrations; I got my car and went to an abandon church for answers; which was not far from where I lived and found nothing there. Next, I went to another church that was known to me (a Catholic Church) while I called my cousin; who was a former spiritual minister for help. When I reached my destination, my cousin and I had a talk about me being queer, and my relationship with my second ex. It was a later in the week in the afternoon when we talked. Then as I was sitting in the car talking to her, a priest passed by in his car, driving into the church, “Maybe that was a sign of hope.” I thought to myself as he did that and said my goodbyes to my cousin, who was still on the phone. I got out of my car and walk up to the church’s doors. I tried to open it, but it was closed for the day. So, as I was marching back to my car with pride and saying, “I can do this! I can change who I am.” However, before I did that process of that, I got an e-mail, a few days later after I got home, from my second ex; who send me a strange message, from using some of my best friend's information into my e-mail. [You know what happened next from "This is my recovery story."]
In the earlier process / stages with my therapist, for a couple of weeks towards the end of 2012. I begin telling her about a little bit of my relationship with my second ex as a mistake with a example of a diagram from the movie, "Why Did I Get Married?" a movie from Tyler Perry. The diagram shows two list - one list as the good qualities between myself and my second ex; and another list as the bad qualities between myself and second ex. Maybe, my therapist slowly decided on conversion therapy on me to not be interested in guys anymore. At first, not to my knowledge; didn't know what was going on with me / didn't mention it to my mother, who brought me to my therapist visits / nor not knew what conversion therapy was at the time. Somehow, after my visits with my therapist, for a couple of weeks towards the end of 2012 followed by being in a group house for almost a year in 2013 and returned home; I returned being interested into guys again, slowly.
(Because I could not stand being a group house with mostly guys with few ladies in the place[s] I was in. At one point, I had to stay with a young couple with a child; in addition, I had a roommate who also had a mental illness; but his was a different from me. And I hated to be around him sometimes. It took almost four or five months before I could move into a group with my own room. I did had one friend, who had a similar mental illness like me; however, I don't reconnect with him anymore. - because of a difference of the lifestyle we have.)
When I did returned home, around October or November of 2013; I wanted to continue in my recovery as I learned about my mental illness and not long afterwards, I returned to college with focus on a new major of study.

Friday, February 1, 2019

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Entertainer / Music Celebrity News: Update - Jussie Smollett as he breaking his silence and make a statement as a victim of hate crime

I’m proud of Jussie as he makes a statement against the haters. I hope something need to done and protect the LBGTQ community. Also, I hope we can bring justice against the haters who dislike us - like Jussie Smollett, for what we’re trying to achieve on something.

1. https://theblast.com/jussie-smollett-statement-attack/amp/

2. https://deadline.com/2019/02/jussie-smollett-breaks-silence-attack-chicago-empire-1202547468/amp/

3. https://www.essence.com/amp/entertainment/only-essence/jussie-smollett-breaks-silence-vicious-attack/

4. https://www.hotnewhiphop.com/jussie-smollett-breaks-silence-following-hate-crime-attack-news.70957.html?_amp

5. https://deadline.com/2019/02/jussie-smollett-assualt-first-appearance-troubadour-lee-daniels-maxine-waters-weho-1202548463/amp/

6. https://www.dailywire.com/news/42968/empire-star-breaks-silence-about-horrific-assault-james-barrett