Tuesday, December 25, 2018

Storytime #2: Meeting my first ex

I met my first ex in middle school in the second semester (second half of the year) of 8th grade. I thought during this short time we met, we would be remain friends until whenever. But I was wrong; as soon I entered the 9th grade in high school, she want be my girlfriend. During this period of time, I was going some personal issues of my own while trying focus on school instead of her. Someone placed me in a class with her and some other classmates that I shouldn’t have been in. I don’t remember what class I was put in for that short period of time, but I felt it was wrong to be there along with her.
Lucky for me; I was out of that class, I guess about a week or two and away for her, but not for long. I did hang out with her; only at the lockers, but as casual I could be before first period almost everyday. But suddenly almost a year and after Valentine’s Day of us meeting each other; she dump me for someone else. I was sad for a minute, but later I was little relieved.
Then fast forward to my junior year in high school, I asked her to go to prom with me as friends. But she kept making weird excuses. So before a week or two from prom night, I investigated for myself from a list that was posted on the wall of who paid dues for prom. I paid my dues with help of my mother, but my ex-girlfriend didn’t paid some of hers. I was confused and upset because she didn’t said something to me about it.
After that, I almost decided not to go to prom. Lucky, my mother and my aunt want to cheer me up and took me the prom without a prom date because it’s a special event in your life beside getting married (which is the next chapter in your life.) After I went to the prom, I was happy to going there.

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Here’s a song(music) by Carl Thomas - I Wish

Storytime #2, part 2: Meeting my first ex

My experience with my first boyfriend.:

https://www.quora.com/q/lgbt1you?ch=10&share=d4edad46&srid=0lXSq
(⚠️You must sign up and/(or) be a member to this link, then go into submission / find my name in profile / in this group from link. [What was your first relationship after coming out like?] - (To read this, “Storytime, part 2; Meeting my first ex.”⚠️)

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Here’s a song(music) by Adele - Set Fire To The Rain

Monday, December 24, 2018

Storytime #1: Christmas Tradition

My remembrance of Christmas is fresh in my mind. A couple of years ago (Before my grandmother in my father’s side of the family, who passed away in summer of 2011;) Every year around Christmas, before that time, all of my families from my father’s side of the family would visit my grandmother’s home. Seeing all of my cousins, uncles, and aunts together with my father, with grandmother were wonderful times for me. Exchanging gifts, talking about different things that happen in our lives, and enjoy each other. Since my grandmother passed away, we don’t do that tradition anymore. Maybe because of my mother’s disagreement with my father’s family.

I miss my grandmother from my father’s side of the family. One of the last things she did a few of years before she passed was; she helped me get into my first college for 2008.

Thursday, December 13, 2018

Tuesday, December 11, 2018

Positive Mind Thoughts / Quote: Positive Mindset Thoughts

One Small Positive Thought In The Morning Can Change The Entire Outcome Of Your Day!

Music / Pandora / Spotify: Music I like to listen

Check Out These Sites:
1. Pandora: www.pandora.com/1sanderals

2. Pandora: https://www.pandora.com/1sanderals1
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1. Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/user/spotify/playlist/37i9dQZF1E46nPkOjz8p7w?si=04KU1ZM8R1y8weSBBzx5yw

2. Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/user/dh47p7k1waeh7017letoe0u0s?

Entertainment: My Top Favorite Podcast To Listen

1. Brain On! Science

2. Joel Osteen Podcast

3. Steve Havery Morning Show

4. IGN Game Reviews - Spoken Edition

5. Ted Radio Hour

6. LeVar Burton Reads

7. Gay USA

8. The Breakfast Club

9. The VUU (a Unitarian Universalist talk show) - Church of the Larger Fellowship

10. Being LGBTQ



Monday, December 10, 2018

Health: Mental Health issues - what we should know? Part 2


Mental Health issues towards all of our communities:

Surviving With a Mental Illness -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lrZZoCm-nME&feature=share

Breaking The Stigma And Shame of Mental Illness -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OsRF8xGgbPA&feature=share

5 Do’s and Don’ts Of Dealing With Other’s Mental Illness -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ezmyi8fPjxs&feature=share

If you need help about your mental health or know someone with a mental health issues, check out: NAMI: National Alliance on the Mental Illness, on this blog site. In addition, if your not interested in doing that, contact me because I have some experience with mental health.

Health: Mental Health issues - what we should know? Part 1


Mental Health issues towards all of our communities:

How To Manage Your Mental Health -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rkZl2gsLUp4&feature=share

Mental Health - Blind Stigma -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vdLyUJq0b9c&feature=share

Black Health Matters -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=meHVNJ5Y05g&feature=share

Black Mental Health Isn’t The Same as White Mental Health -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kjxRGbJvQIY&feature=share

Image There Was No Stigma To Mental Illness -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WrbTbB9tTtA&feature=share

If you need help about your mental health or know someone with a mental health issues, check out: NAMI: National Alliance on the Mental Illness, on this blog site. In addition, if your not interested in doing that, contact me because I have some experience with mental health.

Sunday, December 9, 2018

Life Lesson: My Do’s and Don’ts of Dating from my personal experience.

Four tips about dating from my personal experience:

1. Do plan your date in advance.

2. Do learn as much as you can about your partner at less a month before you date them.

3. Don’t reveal about my past relationship(s) or any personal issues too early until you can build trust and understanding about each other.

4. Don’t Never eat one good meal or just have something to drink in the morning and expect it to last until that end of the day on your first date.


Saturday, December 8, 2018

Religion: Are Young People Really Leaving Christianity?

For the passed couple of years, I noticed a pattern of not going to my upbringing Catholic faith less and less until I have not interested in going to one any more. (Because of this recently change of their creed, we have to recite every time I go with my parents to church.) My question is why didn’t they revised it before in my youth years to better understand what it means instead of later years in my mid-twenties?

1. http://coldcasechristianity.com/2018/are-young-people-really-leaving-christianity/

2. https://www.foxnews.com/opinion/five-reasons-people-leave-the-church.amp

3. https://spectrummagazine.org/views/2018/generation-change-why-our-youth-leave

4. https://faithit.com/12-reasons-millennials-over-church-sam-eaton/

5. https://www.pbs.org/wnet/religionandethics/2018/07/16/millennials-really-leaving-religion-not-just-politics-folks/34880/

Thursday, December 6, 2018

Tech. Issues: Do you hate unknown calls that you don’t recognize?

Check out this app.: RoboKiller.
Fight back with this app. to stop unknown and telemarketing callers that you don’t know.
This app. is almost 100% effective, but get the job done for you.


Wednesday, December 5, 2018

Tech. Issues: Do you like to take surveys?

Check out this app.: QuickThoughts. It works toward your ITunes card account.
- It only works for iPhones. Sorry other phone users.

Social: Feeling and emotions towards others

Why do some people look serious toward others? - It’s a question that I came across when my mom looks at me differently sometimes.
https://www.quora.com/Why-do-some-people-look-so-serious

Sunday, December 2, 2018

Storytime #Zero(0): This is my recovery story.

My recovery story begins back in the springs of 2012 when I was still a college student at Chattahoochee Tech. (Technical) College. I was focusing on studying toward a major in Computer Information System-Networking  Specialist. During that time, my core classes (Math and English); I was curious about the dating world. So I decided my option of choice was to date online. (I won't go into detail about that - by not naming individuals.) The thing about the date that I experienced was short; and it lasted a week. I was dating my second ex who I discovered shortly after when I ended our first date, he has an anti-personality disorder (sociopath). After few months of this crazy person who was trying to control my life; he took revenge on me by doing the unthinkable, using some of my best friend’s information into my e-mail and I fell for it. And as a result; I was in a terrible car accident, looking for my best friend in summer of 2012. Next couple months afterward, I was not myself - First, hearing voices from two of my former mentors from my father’s mouth. (one example that happened to me.) Then; second, I ran away twice; (one: on foot with my father’s bicycle for a mile or two up the street, fortunately; I called my parents on the cellphone as I was returning back home, after a couple of days after my car accident and was hospitalized the first time in summer of 2012. And two: I took the S.U.V. and drove it away for hours; fortunately, when I reach my final destination at my colIege, that evening. My former mentor along with some police officers were waiting for me there until my parents came and I was hospitalized again for the second time afterwards in the beginning of 2013.) I ran away, the first time and took the S.U.V., the second time; because I was afraid of my father who had two voices (one was positive and the other was negative)  which was coming from his mouth between two of my former mentors. Next; third, during both times I was hospitalized, I was confusion and afraid as I was recovering from the mess I was in. And finally; fourth, I do remember seeing image of my second ex, four times. - (One: I remember in just before the car accident, I saw an image of my second ex, driving next to me at a stop light. I did see him, but for second before the light changed to green light and I drove ahead of him towards going home. - Two: I remember a strong image of him while I was hospitalized, the first time at Wellstar hospital, however; he was in a wheelchair and was a muslim roommate after my first roommate was released from the hospital. I was afraid of him and he had the same mental disorder - anti-personality disorder (sociopath) like my ex did. Lucky for me, I working on some strategies around him until my release from the hospital. - Three: After I was release from the hospital the first time, I saw another image of my second ex; driving across the street as my mother and I were going to the gasstation to get some gas for our car. - And Finally Four: Also after a week or two of released from the hospital the first time, I remember when my parents and me went to a place get my parents' new glasses, I waited in the waiting room when suddenly an image of my second ex appeared with an image of his mother. They sat behind us for a movement. I felt very afraid because I knew someone was coming to the same place and I wanted to stay behind in the car. however they didn't stay very long and departed.) - I been going to a Psychiatrist for passed 6 years as he worked get the right dose of meds since the end of 2012. [I used to take Risperidone, but it was not effective and made the voices and other things worse.] However, I take two meds - (Fluoxetine) in the morning and (Olapanzine) at night, before bedtime; which it’s very successful with improve, in addition; I don't hear voices anymore, but continue to take them maybe for the rest of my life and not to miss taking my meds for certain period of time. Also in 2012, I went to a Therapy for a couple of weeks towards the end of 2012, in a one-on-one session with her and I to resolve my relationship of cause and effect between myself and my ex. The next year in 2013 about a month after I was hospitalized the second time; I went to a group house for almost a year while going to a Community Service place, in Carterville, Georgia, United States. Then, I returned home and went to Cobb and Douglas Community Services Board (a.k.a. - The Circle) for two years, near my location; in Powder Springs, Georgia, United States - to continue learning and manage my diagnosis. - (Used to be diagnosis as Schizophrenia, which I thought it was (for a while), but recently really was diagnosed as Schizoaffective Disorder.) Recently, I returned to the same college in 2016, but changed my major to Media Production with a new purpose to get into the film / television industry one day. I been having the courage to drive again, but with my father until one day I would be able to drive on my own again. Lucky for me, I was able to drive on my own this year and to the future for next year, thanks to my father's help. I been using social media to learn and connect with others who have similar issues like I have. Also i returned to blogging that I haven’t done in a while. And I returned to dating again in 6 years, but I’m learned from my mistakes from my last relationship(s) into this new one as I take things slow.